Where have I been?

I have no idea if anyone reads my blog. They certainly haven't read anything new for 4 months. I am still dazed at how different my life is from 4 months ago.

Here's the reader's digest version of what has been going on. Early in February I wen to Colorado for a conference for facilitators of Becoming a Love and Logic Parent course. I came back with grand ideas of how to get going with classes and such. I was still subbing at the kids' school as well. They called me to come and substitute again, and they asked me to work full-time as an Instructional Aide. I said yes, since it would only be a few more months until school got out.

Life got exponentially busier then. I have never had to go to work and then still do all the mom and house stuff when I came home, I was exhausted. Then, just as I thought I was getting the hang of it and the end of Spring Break was coming to a close, the Bishop and 1st Counselor in our ward visited our home. They extended the calling for me to be the new Relief Society President. WWWhhhhhaaaatttt? Somebody upstairs has a sense of humor, huh? In a daze, I accepted and the days have all started to run together even more.

I have wonderful counselors and a truly great set of sisters in the ward, but sometimes managing just a lot of details at once can be a bit crazy. Now, I am learning to keep my life planned out on my Ipod touch, and learning to delegate the things I can.

I make no promises of more and frequent blogging. I will, however, be writing a talk I will give in church in a little over a week and preparing my lesson for Relief Society the first week of July, amongst other things.

Pray for me, I need it!

Ironic

Do you ever get the feeling you've tried really hard or worked on something expecting a certain outcome and it just wasn't there. The closest I can come to explaining it is with lyrics to a song. Ya know the song by Alanis Morissette, Ironic? Okay get that tune in your head, then the lyrics will come.

"An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day..."
(move on to the chorus)

"It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought ... it figures "

(then jumping clear to the very last verse)
"Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out "

I'm sure I take many things and people and opportunities for granted. I try to appreciate who I have, what I have and how lucky and fortunate I am. (I've said before how spoiled I am).

BUT, earlier this week I felt like I was trying to row upstream and was just so completely frustrated. I'm better now. Life seems to ease up on its own.

So, what do the lyrics mean? Life is just ironic. It's never coordinated to work out exactly how you've planned it or wanted it to happen. Life just happens whether you're on board or not. Sometimes I just get caught off guard and don't know what to think.

(Oh, I just remembered another song that could be applicable too. Howard Jones, No One is to Blame.)